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So wow... its been so long since I've
updated this thing and even then I don't have much to talk about.
But what I lack in quantity I make up for in quality. Monica
just left yesterday, and when she did a part of me died right then.
For anyone that reads this and doesn't know, the my everything
had came and visited this week from Sunday to Thursday and I was in
complete bliss during that time. I don't know what I would do
without her love anymore, I'm afraid it would be a blow that I could
not recover from if it suddenly wasn't there. For anyone
interested in what we did while she was her we ate dinner at Dee's
and Kendra's Sunday night, went to the mall and saw pink
panther Monday and then ate dinner at Kelly's tavern, rented the new
Harry Potter on Tuesday went to Naticus then went to Ms. Thomas ( the
person Monica was staying with) and then after dinner came back here
and watched Harry Potter, and Wednesday we hung out with Jamie ( the
one that introduced Monica and I to each other) at AMF Military Lanes
and Lynnhaven Mall. And yesterday was the saddest day of
my life when Monica and I parted ways again so she could go home.
We are already planning on the next time we see each other and
frankly I cannot wait for it at all. Also on Wednesday a
dreadful thing had happened, Mom and Jack came home form Wyoming so
Monica had the great displeasure of meeting my mother. Speaking
of my mother, 80% chance that she has breast cancer. I
know I've bad mouthed her on here before but she is my mom and I
still love her so please everybody pray for her. And for anyone
that is curious about how my journey to becoming a Marine is going I
am currently at 230 pounds now, that is 70 pounds I've lost
since last May. And I would like to congratulate Kendra on the
good job she is doing and wish her the best of luck for when she does
ship out. And congrats to David for getting the ROTC
scholarship at ODU, couldn't think of a more deserving
person........other then myself lol j/k dude. So how is my life
going, to be honest I think Monica is the highlight of it.
I am still going to TCC and I have a work study there. I still
work at the Bank of the Commonwealth unfortunately. Jeep still
drinks gas by the barrel. And I miss those UPS supervisor
paychecks. Well I best be going. Monica I love you and
I'd be lost without you, play take care and smile until Hawaii.
And everyone else take care and thanks for everything. Talk to
you all later, bye.
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| So wow, I've neglected this thing like a crackwhore neglects her child
but I have a good reason. My girlfriend, yes ladies and
gentlemen you read that correctly, has been taking up most of my
attention. And I can't complain about that at all, I think its a
better use of my time then anything I would be doing instead. She
is the beautiful lady with me in my profile pic for anyone that is
curious as to what she looks like. And if you even think that she
is not beautiful I will fight you and you will lose dearly.
Sweety, you are the best thing to happen to me ever, and I don't see
how it can get any better then this.
And now its for what you have come to expect form me, how has Mr.
Murphy boned me this time. My Jeep is int eh shop for teh second
time for transmission problems. Nate is still in Iraq still stuck
with the goddamn radio instead of the SAW he came to know and
love. Speaking of love, things are still going good between him
and Michelle which is great. Kendra and Chris are doing great,
which is even better. I've never seen her(Kendra) so happy and I
hope she stays that way. Speaking of Kendra her goal of joining
the USMC is approaching and it appears she will get in on time(was
there ever any doubt, I think not), Bravo Zulu Kendra you worked
hard for it and you deserve it. It appears that I'll be
postponed. I would say that I couldn't get to the gym because my
Jeep was broke, but thats only part of teh equation. I also
slacked on my diet, and I am kicking myself in the ass and have
reaffirmed to it now. Ok back to teh good news. Last
weekend I went to visit my girlfriend in Penns. and I wish I never had
to come home. And if I did have to come home that she came with
me. And not only was it great to finally see her it was also nice to
meet her Uncle and Grandparents. They are very nice and I felt
like I was part of the family from the getgo. I can't wait to
finally meet her parents and get their approval and spend much more
time with Monica in the process. I miss you honey and I can't
wait until the next time we cross paths. Well anyways I'm gonna
go now. Take care everyone. And to my special lady, I love
you.
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| Ah where shall I begin? Well to answer that question it would
probably be easier to answer if I first consider how I want this to
end. I want this to end with with a few very important people in
my life knowing how much I care about them. With that clear I can
now accomplish that by takign care of it inthe begining so it is not
forgoten. Let me start taht with the woman who is really close to
my heart even though so far away. Monica, I am never very good at
expressing my feelings especially in the capacity of the feelings I
have for you. I feel like I am walking in the dark and the only
source of light is you on the other side of a long tunnel leading me
towards bliss. Should I stumble I'll get up, should I tire I
shall push on until I finally reach where I want to be. I don't
knwo why I'm not tellign you this directly since you and I are talking
on AIM but I am not ashamed to admit that I have deep feelings for you
in public. Besides, pretty much teh only people that read this
thing already know anyways so not like it is new news. Speaking
of whom, Kendra I hope things work out between you and Chris if you do
decided to go down that route with him. And don't feel bad
about lossing ground towards our goal, we both have which means we jsut
gotta work hard together to get there. Whenever you got a free
2-3 hours give me a call and lets go to the gym, I'll drive. I
know that is harder now that we both go to school and you work but it
can be done. I still have confidence that we'll make our Feburary
goal and Nate will be there for our Graduation ceremonies.
Takecare Kendra and remember that you can always call me, this second
deployment will be tough on the both of us but together we made it
through the first one so I know we can make this time too. And
Nate, brother friend and partner in crime, you watch your ass while you
are over there. I know you can't read this but I'll be damned if
I don't send you off without speaking my mind. You takecare of
yourself over there alright, don't worry about us here.
I'll watch over the family for you if you do that for me. Hey
I'll see ya at Kendra and mines graduation ceremony, just keep in touch
between then and now alright. P.S. Give 'em Hell
Marine.
Well I think I am gonna end this with that note. There are soem
other thigns I coudl vent but why soil my loved ones by including that
garbage with a post about them Takcare everyone and I love you
all.
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| I don't know why but I'm not happy right now. My mood is depressed and the cause is unknown. I had a good day today, wen tot Busch Gardens for the first time and I enjoyed it. Contrary to the belief of the group of people I was with, you do not have to ride the roller coasters to have fun. I enjoyed just spending time with them and being around Kendra and Nate though I felt like a fith wheel at times. Except for the icecream shop, in there all five of us were involved in a covnersation." LT. Dan icecream, icecream LT. Dan" lol. But somethign little like that is not of importance.
Hey I did some good today. While Nate and them were in line for Big Bad Wolf I went into the concessions line for the first time. Get half way though teh line and teh cashier who was running got sick and nearly passed out. While the lady at the front of the line was asking her if she was ok I just went to the. Went in had her sit down and drink some water while the lady from before held ice to the back of the ldaies kneck. While that was happenign I dialed securtiy and told them what was happening. About 2 mintues later the male cashier and a manager come up and take the girl outside. It turned out she was suffering from heat exhaustion while pregnant. And people say I'm a mean guy.So after that ordeal I get a MD:Sode Red and a churro and wait for the gang to go by on the. They go by and then I enter the line again to get them all bottled water. Unfortunately the line moved too slow and they were there by the time I got the water. Suprise ruined but the thought was still there.
Ah yes , another piece of good news. I was told today the Kendra is no longer uncomfortable around me. I gotta tell you that that is a heavy burden off of my heart. You probably don't have a clue how hard it is on a person to know that their best friend feels uncorfortable around them. Hell she is even closer to me then Nate is. Sorry Nate, but you run a close second on that list. Anyways back to what I was saying. The back story on that is Kendra took me admitting that she is one of a very few people I would agree to go out with as me saying I have feelings for her. And that thought made her feel uncomfortable. Frankly I don't blame her. Well we had a talk about all that one night and appearently she was convinced that I don't have feelings for her, though I sill sense a hint of skepticism from her.
Which brings another question up. One friendship problem resolved but another still looms. Suzannah, what is the deal. Do you just hate me or something becasue you have been avoiding or ignoring me. By that I mean eitehr stay on btu don't respond ot me IMs or you see me and setup an away message saying you think you hate me and that your hands are around my throat. All I gotta ask is if you hate me, why? What did I do to you that you would hate me so much. Now granted our friendship was never very stable, with its ups and downs. But it was never to the point to where you jsut blatantly ignored me. I mean hell when Kendra was uncomfortable with me she at least still talked to me. Hell thats what saved hers and mine friendship becasue I was half-way temtped to say screw it. ( Sorry Kendra I just didn't see how we could be freinds if we weren't comfortable around eachother but I glad we worked thigns out.)
Oh yeah for those who don't know I am no longer employeed by UPS. I quit after 3 months as a Supervisor. I just couldn't stand working there anymore. I was gettign up at 2 int eh mornign only to spend my entire day sweating my ass off, ripping off customers and employees, getting yelled at, work an extra 2-3 hours a day without getting paid for it nor reimbersd for gas, and being walked on all the time. I'm sorry but I cannot sit tehre and jsut be immoral, it against everythign I learned about beign a leader. Number one priority there was money. It wasn't employee wealthfair or service, it was jsut get things done as quick as possible so we pay our people less. SOmeone would come up to me and tell me they had a funeral they need to go to in a couple of days and eventhough UPS had funeral days they wouldn't let teh guy take the time off. Or my personal favorite was that supervisors get sick days yet they don't let them call in sick. Thats like wiping before you poop, it jsut don't make sense. And of course they ripped me off of 1 more paycheck by telling me the day I turned in my 2 weeks notice was my last day. I had planned on workign that last week, hell that would be another $550 in my bank account. I gotta say I loved doing what I did before a supervisor and if I never took that promotion I'd still be workign there but so much for that. You live and learn.
Well I think I wrote enough of a novel now I am gonna get ready to head to bed. Still depressed, I'm open to hypothesis's on the reason why. Well Nate, man it was nice having you home. I am gonna miss having you aroudn again becasue this was a taste of the good ole days when we were young and hadn't a care in the world. Be safe alright man and I'll see ya when you come back 9 months from now. And Kendra, I'll be honest you made my day today when you told me you weren't uncomfortable around me anymore. Now if only you woudl tell me what I need to catch up on. But take care and you know that you can always call me no matter what. Hell if our friendship had ended and you called me one day I would have stilled picked up. I can't tell you or Nate how much you guys mean to me. My friends seem to be the only thing I have left and with friends like you who needs more. Well, I could use a girlfriend but thats a different story. I just find the touch of a woman....soothing. Well I love you guys and I'll see ya later today hehehe. | | |
| Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High
URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html
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